This was the quote that sent me to treatment.
Two years ago around this time, I was sitting in my therapist’s office.
I had hit a LOW point in my life.
Externally, things were great.
Beautiful home, AMAZING boyfriend, great job, wonderful friends and family… and I can’t forget two crazy loving fur babies Dack & Dexter.
Inside I was a mess.
I was so caught up in my restrictive eating and my anxiety was unbearable.
I constantly thought about food and working out… no joke… it was CONSTANT.
My life had become so rigid with my patterns and habits I just couldn’t take it anymore.
Deep down, I KNEW I was strong enough to overcome my struggles. But for TOO long (roughly 10 years) I had let the negative influence - my eating disorder - control my life.
I needed to do something DIFFERENT if I was EVER going to be free.
“If you keep doing what you’ve always done, you’ll keep being what you’ve always been.” My therapist said to me, as I sat in the big arm chair across the room.
So at that point, I made the scariest, but bravest decision I have made.
Two years ago, I made the decision to leave my home, my love, my dogs, my family and friends, my job, etc. to do something DIFFERENT to get my life back.
I left my comfort zone, bought a one way plane ticket and moved across the country to get help.
I had no idea what to expect or when I would be coming home.
All I knew was that I was “sick and tired of being sick and tired” and I was ready to channel my inner bad ass and do something that scared the crap out of me.
My ego was telling me I was weak... I was a loser... I couldn’t change. I was embarrassed to tell my family, my boss, my friends what I was doing.
But regardless of how weak/scared/embarrassed I felt, I had to do it… and I did.
(This story is "to be continued"...)
The point of this message, is YOU ARE WORTH IT.
Regardless of what you are working towards in your personal life, no matter how big or how small, you deserve to be HAPPY, HEALTHY & FREE.
I challenge you to think about something in your life you would like to change.
What are you doing to change it? If you continue to go through the motions and stay on the same path, will that lead you to your goals?
Or do you need to do something brave, and step out of your comfort zone a little?
Think about it.
I’m here if you need me