It is ok to admit you are not perfect. By all means, I am far from it. A person can only do so much in a day. As much as I try to be "super woman"...I have come to realize that is a farfetched expectation. I've worked so hard to get where I am today. Between work, school and relationships, I have always given everything I had, in my mind and in my heart, to make things work.
Life can be crazy. I've often wondered why certain things happen the way they do, and why some people are placed in certain circumstances... that often seem unfair or don't make sense.
People, places, and situations are not coincidence. Whether you like it or not, I believe that they were meant to happen- that everything happens for a reason. I have used my faith to try and understand some of the situations and challenges I have been faced with over the past several years. "Why is God challenging me like this?" is a question that I have been asking myself a lot lately. God has a plan for everyone, including myself. I am on Gods timeline. Although I may not like or understand some of these challenges, ultimately I know I will get through them.
Sometimes it takes a significant event, or person, to make you open your eyes. I am thankful that finally happened for me, and even more thankful that this time I am serious about making a change.
Welcome to my blog. The words you just read were taken from a journal entry that I wrote last summer. I think it paints a clear picture of my life over the past several years. During that time, I worked full time, went to school/studied full time, tried to make time for family, friends, a boyfriend, etc… all while being tainted with the hardships of an eating disorder.
Several months later, I am in a completely different place. I have dedicated myself to my health, my happiness and my freedom. I have been working towards recovery from my eating disorder, and could not be more proud of the progress I have made. I promised myself, that once I was in a healthy state of mind, I would use this struggle for good. I didn't battle an eating disorder for five years just to push it aside and pretend like it never happened. I want to use my experience to help others in the same/similar situation. I want to share my story, to spread awareness of this illness that so many people suffer from.
Whether you are an individual struggling with an ED... or a parent, friend, relative, etc. of someone who is, I want this to be a safe place for you to come to share thoughts, ask questions, and know that they are not alone.